I haven’t written for a while but wanted to get back to it again.
I was going to tell you the story of how we first got involved but after I wrote the first few blogs of how our feelings started to develop, I found I just couldn’t relive those days anymore.
Today I had enough of his hot / cold, silent treatment / hoovering, kindness / rudeness – you get the picture. I laid it out on the line for him today and accused him of taking advantage of me when I was grieving my husband, and his stories about leaving his wife were just lies – I let it rip, in a polite way because I am president of the social club we belong to, but I told him I don’t want to hear from him anymore and I need time and space to move forward.
He read my text – I wish I was a fly on the wall, but then I blocked him and I am done.
I had such a headache today, but then I fell asleep in my chair after supper and I feel better now. I think I may finally have a good sleep tonight.
I am done with the narcissist dance. Will he come back down the road? I will be seeing him a lot at events – weekly in the summer – and I’m not looking forward to that but I will do my best. He has come back each time I have told him what I thought and I wondered why. He is older than me so he is either a narc needing my supply or maybe just getting senile and he doesn’t remember what I said to him.
He is gone for now and maybe I can finally heal. I will write more about how we got involved when the pain of this subsides a bit more. In the meantime I will write about my progress and all the things he did to me along the way so hopefully if you are going through this, you will find some tips to help you get out before it consumes you like it did me.
Thanks for reading. I wish you peace.
The Betrayed Widow 