Since my ill-fated romance with the narcissist ended three years ago (has it been that long?), I have read so many books on narcissism, breakups, recovery – I have gobbled them up while drinking far too many cups of coffee but still not found a solution or even a few nuggets of wisdom to help me move past this.
He is always around me so no contact doesn’t work. We belong to the same antique car club, so there are monthly meetings, then in the summer, shows and cruises two, or sometimes three times a week. He is really in my face then.
No one is aware who he really is. In person at the events, he is charming, folksy, laughing etc., but via email or text to me, the evil comes out, which is why he deceives everyone. He has been called a ‘gentle soul’ (barf), and a nice guy etc etc. They don’t see the other side of him once he is out of the public eye.
I have been forced to stay in email and text contact with him because as the president of this club, I regularly send out information to the members, to which sometimes I need a reply. I have to keep his contact info on my phone so blocking is not an option.
I wonder sometimes why I still hurt so much, but all this constant interaction is making me nuts. At shows he will bring his lawn chair and sit with me, even when his wife is near. Sometimes he will purposely sit with her and ignore me. On it goes.
I really don’t know what to do about this.
Thanks for reading. Peace
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The Betrayed Widow 